Morning guys
Finally thought I had better start a new post as the old one Binge eating was over 50 pages.
Have not had a good night. I was planning on going to bed at about 11.30pm when the diarrhoea started again and kept me up until 2.00am.
Finally managed to get to sleep and was then woken at 5.00am with further stomach pains and more diarrhoea. I haven't really been able to sleep properly since. I know this is self-inflicted but I am so tired still, and have woken with a sore throat - hope I am not getting the latest cold that is doing the rounds at the clinic.
I am seeing my dietician at 11.00 this morning although on the way I have been feeling recently I'll be half asleep again by then [|)].
I want to turn this into a positive day (after all the recent negative ones) and get on with some of the jobs I have been meaning to do around the flat for the past few weeks. I am just not sure I have the energy to do any of it.
At the moment it looks like I have a problem with hoarding things when in fact I can't stand clutter [:O]. So I need to have a real sort through things, tidy up and get rid of what I don't want or need. In my head I am in the frame of mind to do it, but my body is not matching my good intentions. The furthest I've got so far is the sorting out of paperwork (whenever I did that - can't even remember now [:I]) and last night finally shredded all the paperwork I no longer need.
The weather seems a bit brighter here this morning too, but I have 101 things I need to do here - ironing, washing then more ironing, cleaning, vacuuming, dusting etc etc etc. I feel worn out just thinking about it all. I know I could spread these jobs out a bit but as my tenancy is up for renewal I don't know whether the landlord/agent will want to inspect the flat before renewing the tenancy. I've not heard anything from them and don't know how these things work. My tenancy is up on 27 May. I don't even know whether it is going to be renewed. I'll be homeless if not [:O].
Anyway, trying to motivate myself to get up, have a bath etc but not succeeding at the moment [8)].
Karen xx