I investigated!

[Gee]

No I’m not thank god because I think that would make me even worse - lumps and bumps from ducts and mastitis possibility etc I would be a wreck - scared to google the throbbing feeling - I’m really hoping it’s anxiety or exercise related 😣

[Gee]

Anyone else have this need for a definitive test ... I don’t know if this is a strange HA symptom because most of what I read says you get the test result... but then you go back to panicking shortly after.

I seem to need a test .. a definitive test ... eg. My MS worries years ago, they gave me an MRI that was clear then all symptoms and worries disappeared and I haven’t really thought about it since.

Some might say atm what I should be worried about is that I got an abnormal smear and then had a colposcopy and biopsy and it was determined as minimal CIN1 changes and just to book another in one year.

But what I’m stressing over is weird breast symptoms and worrying non stop about breast cancer - because no one can /will give me a definitive test.... all I’ve had is 2 GP’s do a check which is pretty non descriptive and doesn’t prove much because to me it’s not a test it’s a GP opinion and don’t hate me for saying this but most GP’s I’ve seen along the way in life have messed up with me

Is that odd? ... it’s like I need a certain answer before I put it behind me.

[jojo2316]

I think this is a classic way to think: “I can’t tackle my health anxiety until I know for sure I am not ill.” It is something I struggle with daily. I don’t have any real answers- just understanding!

[Gee]

So ... I looked at private breast ultrasounds and guess what... the guy I saw at the NHs breast clinic is the same man who does the private stuff 🙈 he was lovely and seemed thorough but what is bugging me if I told him I had one instance of blood discharge and I told him the same side I get a little cloudy fluid when I squeeze from a Montgomery gland and he didn’t seem bothered but I keep seeing on things like ‘This morning’ etc these are signs of breast cancer so I’m just worried he’s dismissed it incorrectly. He probably won’t reply but I emailed him to ask if they warrant private investigation as my GP won’t refer me via the NHS !

I’m just so worried I’ll be misdiagnosed and then it will be too late for me to see my little boy grow up :(

[Elen]

Hi

This is just a courtesy reply to let you know that your thread was merged with another of your threads.

Please when posting on similar topics add it onto your previous post rather than starting a new one.

It is nothing personal it is just to make it easier for people to follow your story and to give you advice as a whole.

Elen

[Gee]

Surprise surprise! I went to see the GP again today because this breast lump thing is really really stressing me out beyond belief, anyway he did an examination and after 2 other GP’s at the surgery saying it was my rib and I’m fine.... he says he feels a lump and I need to be referred. I KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN!!!
I cannot wait 2 weeks for a referral ie after Xmas - I just can’t, this is mybabies first Christmas - so I booked a private app Saturday for a consultation with a breast specialist- I’m just furious that I bought this up in October! Now I’m terrified - all I keep thinking is I’m dying and I’ll never see my baby grow up - I’m just sat here crying

[BlueIris]

Gee, I know this won't help at such a tough time, but I know so many people who've been referred to breast clinics and it's never been anything other than innocent.

My heart goes out to you - bear in mind that even if it's the worst case scenario (which it almost certainly isn't), breast cancer is very treatable these days.

[Gee]

Im just so upset they always make mistakes with me this is where all my HA comes from! I caught sepsis in labour because midwifes screwed up the shift handover, I had a kidney condition from birth until 11 because they refused my mother’s insistence I wasn’t well then realised and had to operate and now this - I just feel like their mistakes will kill me! I have so many lovely things to look forward to with my family this Xmas and now I don’t even want to get out of bed - I’m just scared and frustrated - I always feel like I have or have had so many medical issues for a healthy girl of 34 - I do all the right things, exercise - eat ok, don’t drink much, don’t smoke .... I just can’t handle all this worry all the time ��

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I already had a fibroadenoma diagnosed in pregnancy on the same side which has shrunk right down and I’m hoping it’s one of them again or just nothing even better but of course with my history I fear the worst

[Gee]

Private consultation tomorrow .... feeling nervous, worried and scared.
My boyfriend says he can’t even feel why I’m going because he can’t feel anything except a raised rib on one side slightly ...
Just stressing out so much, I have 2 lovely christmassy things to do today with my little boy so I’m trying to not let it ruin them.

I’m desperately hoping the consultant says everything is fine and not to worry and then I think I’ll talk with her about a plan... is it sensible to just check for lumps and go to the doc or go get an ultrasound or mamagram once a year (I’d happily pay for that privately)

Also I’m doing hypnotherapy in the new year to really try and curb this HA and enjoy everyday with my family without all this terror and worry that is overwhelming.
X

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Any reassurance or words of wisdom on this particularly hard day welcome x