Originally Posted by
rebelleepoque
Hi Joshua. I'm so sorry to see that you are struggling. I know how hard it is to feel that something is wrong all the time. My own HA journey began with a mistaken diagnosis of IH that turned out to be nothing (AFTER I'd gone through a lot of visual field tests and a lumbar puncture...ugh!) so I understand how scary these symptoms are. Looking through your other posts, I'm reading that you have recently seen an ophthalmologist, had an MRI fairly recently, and also that you suffer from migraines. Your symptoms sound a lot like the migraines and sinus headaches that I get from changes in barometric pressure or humidity (not sure what the weather in the UK is like, but here in the northeastern US it's been really hot and humid so I've been dealing with these fairly often). If you did have IH, it would have definitely been picked up through these tests (in my case, the Dr. thought she saw papilledema, or swollen optic nerves, which can be easily seen even through an undilated pupil. It is a "tell" symptom for IH. In my case, she didn't do a good job but I've seen had other eye exams where the doctor has told me that, in true IH/papilledema, it's obvious--not something someone could miss).
I also met the criteria for an idiopathic IH patient--a young woman of reproductive age who is overweight. It would be extraordinarily rare for a young man of your age to be suffering from idiopathic IH, and any other cause would have been picked up on the eye exams and MRI. It's important that you try to relax about this, as stress can make your migraines worse (as I'm sure you know!) and that whooshing sound can be caused by increased heart rate from stress/anger.
My dad is a doctor (just goes to show that HA can start in anyone, even when you've been growing up hearing horses not zebras your whole life!), and when I start calling/texting him asking about this or that symptom that I think I've found, asking him to look at some weird bump etc., he often asks me "What are you *really* stressed about?" I've found that when I'm able to take a step back, an increase in HA is usually related to other stressors going on in my life--like anxiety about work or school, troubles with friends or my partner etc. You've said that your symptoms began after you had an anger/panic outburst--was there something specific that caused that outburst? Can you trace other flareups of your HA to similar stressors? If you can look at the context of your everyday life when you start to feel bad, it might help you talk to your parents or counselor about how to manage your symptoms. If your parents aren't receptive, do you have a counselor or trusted adult at school/sports/other activities you could talk to about what you are feeling?
You are so young and should be out enjoying your life, not worrying about illness. I gave up so much of my youth to anxiety and I know from experience that I wouldn't want anyone else to go through this if they can possibly help it. I know how easy it is to feel like you'll never get out of the spiral, but with the right support, I think you can. I wouldn't have been able to manage my HA without having people I trusted to draw on (and to trust them to tell me when they can't help me and when I need to seek out professional help). I am keeping my fingers crossed that you are feeling well and balanced soon.