Its been quite the few months. Sometime in march I had some rectal pain. This went for a few months before I scheduled an appointment with my Gastro. With the quarantine I could not go see him for a bit but eventually did. He id a DRE exam and told me it was internal hemmies. I had a colonoscopy and endoscopy about a year a 8 months ago which said I had internal hemorrhoids. Of course I was not satisfied with his answer since it was still bothering me. He told me start taking more fiber (metamucil). I started doing this and about a month after started having some bloating and stomach discomfort. Decided maybe I should stop taking metamucil. I should mention that the whole time I have been way more gassy than normal, every since this whole thing started. Now for the past week the pain seems to have started to concentrate around my pelvic area on the left, my lower back is also hurting. I have been sleeping pretty good but yesterday I woke up and my had pain. It feels like gas pain and I think it feels better when I pass it but then returns quickly.
I know I have health anxiety and recently started seeing a therapist and I am as of 2 days ago on buspirone for the anxiety. I am trying to convince myself that this can all be anxiety related or maybe IBS but its getting harder since it is still around and just keeps in a way getting worst. As far as the hemorroid pain, it comes and goes, when I have stomach problems I almost seem to forget about that and don't really have pain (which makes me think that this is in my brain) but if I start thinking of it and feel good from my stomach I start to feel it again. My diet is not great but it is also not so bad and I just don't know what to do anymore save for going to gastro again (which I do have a follow up in october). I know he is going to mention that I just had a colonoscopy less than 2 years ago, ect. He is not wrong but my mind wonders.