My intent nursing my tooth/gum infection seems to have paid off. But my sleep is still erratic and last night I lay awake until 4am! I really couldn't count the number of times I turned my pillow over and at one point thumped it with frustration and rage. It was a sticky night, but it was my mind keeping me awake.
I went through all my calming and sleep induced tactics, but the one that worked in the end was thinking random words. For example.... Banana, shoe, bacon, mouse, fireman, sausage, balloon, fire, sellotape, hippo. After about fifty or so, I think I fell asleep on Giraffe
It is important that none of the words link together like salt and pepper or strawberries and cream. The words need to be totally random, so the brain relaxes and does not have to work at making any sense.
I wish I had started with this method and not all the others I tried beforehand. It's just certain methods work for different situations.
O/H had unfortunately given me some stuff to worry about just before going to bed, plus the other grief I seem to be carrying around in my head.
I have noticed that I have been talking to myself a lot lately. It's not a completely new thing for me, but I do find it helps in a strange sort of way.
And I need to do more of this in the way of praise. Which is sort of what I do when I get back safely to home after tackling the day's stresses.
So I say things like, "You did it. Well Done".
Or, "That wasn't as horrific as you imagined". "I am so pleased I forced myself to go out, otherwise it would have been another day stuck indoors".
I even praise myself cooking now. It may sound silly to some, but there was a time when I thought I may be living on jacket potatoes for the rest of my life!
We shouldn't be so hard on ourselves. We have to face a lot of difficulties in our lives. So a "Well Done", should be a common thought.