Hi everyone,
I have posted about my terrible HA about my daughter. I'm afraid she has tuberous sclerosis, because my husband was recently diagnosed with angiomyolipoma in kidney (and kidney cancer earlier on). Angiomyolipomas are benign tumors associated with tuberous sclerosis, but much, much more frequently they are observed in healthy patients. In TS they are usually multiple, but when they are sporadic - they are single, like in my husband.
I was so obsessed with TS in daughter that I even booked her for an MRI ( a 9 month old kid!)
But she fell ill last week, we even were in a hospital. So MRI is cancelled for now, in order not to put her under more pressure.
All docs in hospital I talked to about TS laughed at me.
I consulted a neuro online whether I have reasons to be concerned. She said no. It was not enough. I wrote to best TS specialist in a big neighbouring country to ask if she would suspect TS in my husband and daughter. She also siad no.
So, reassurance from best TS specialist should have been enough, right?
But somehow I can't put it out of my mind. I still crave for an MRI, because it seems to me that only this test will give me definitive answers. I keep thinking that even the best doctors can be wrong. I'm ready to put my little girl under anesthesia just for my own reassurance. This is terrible...
I'm forcing myself not to call and book MRI right now. I'm rereading answer from TS specialist all the time, telling myself there is nothing to worry about.
If anyone had been in similar situation - how did you cope with this urge? Just by willpower? Or using some techniques? Or impossible without meds?
Part of me wants this MRI to put it behind me. Part - uderstands that more reassurance will just keep HA going...
Hate HA... :-(