Might have swallowed pieces of glass, extremely paranoid about voice

[nomorepanic]

Hi

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[greendecker]

Respectfully, like your
What are you currently doing to treat your anxiety?

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My instinctive feeling is that nothing happened or else I would have reacted differently, but I'm always just fearing the worst possible scenarios. When I get doubts I do research online and once I see that something is theoretically possible that will drive my judgment. I feel if I don't stay vigilant I could easily unknowingly do something harmful, yet I don't know how I made it this long in life by not ever doing something like this, or I wasn't as conscious about doing it.
I try to stay mindful and let time run its course. Life has always been this infinite mess of possibilities that we are always unconsciously creating through our existence and our agendas, I struggle with finding that agenda in life currently so every action I take is less about me wanting to do A to get B, and more about if I do this how will the universe react. It makes perfect sense to me I feel like I need to accept and embrace it to truly get over it.

[Fishmanpa]

I appreciate your open and honest response. It would interesting to get a trained psychologist's take on it. What is the root of this fear/behavior? Did something happen that was a catalyst? If you're not currently doing so, I would highly advise real life professional help to explore this mindset that obviously is holding you back and how you can change it.

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[greendecker]

I appreciate your open and honest response. It would interesting to get a trained psychologist's take on it. What is the root of this fear/behavior? Did something happen that was a catalyst? If you're not currently doing so, I would highly advise real life professional help.

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Thank you. I am in the process of seeing a psychologist soon. Well the root is an attachment to my voice and singing/making music, as I've got older I've felt more pressure on myself to get better. This has caused me to always want to drink a lot of water to maintain vocal health, and anything else to optimize my ability such as avoiding smoking being around smoke etc. I have struggled for years to find friends who are passionate for music as I am so this has felt like a lonely personal struggle which is why I feel I am so protective and fearful, I feel like I will be the only one who will live with anything going wrong, and I have no friends with similar interests/cares to show me a greater real life perspective. These fears have gotten worse as I've been living at home with my parents the past couple years out of college, as I've felt very stuck and stressed from being around them so much.