Hi, my name's Kathryn, I'm 24 and I live in the North East of England.
I suffer from panic attacks, which have increased dramatically in frequency this year. I had my first panic attack a couple of years ago when there was a spider in my bedroom (my biggest phobia!) and I didn't have one for years. This year I've had one or two a month, over various things such as spiders, job interviews, falling in the bath, having to have my puppy put down - amongst other things.
I live with my boyfriend, we moved in to a new house about 3 months ago and it's great, except I spend a lot of nights in by myself when he's out working - which often lead to worry and tears, however only had one panic attack when he's been out thankfully.
I work as a teacher in a primary school, only been there for 2 months but I love itI do get really stressed in my job which I'm sure doesn't help with my panicking but I'm working on it.
I decided to sign up to NMP tonight as I'm home alone and just had a 45 minute panic attack over a spider in my kitchen. I had to call my mam and cry down the phone for nearly an hour, paralysed to the spot, she managed to coax me away from the kitchen and to the settee. I have realised that being panicked is no way to live, as although my panic attacks only occur once a month I still have anxious feelings on almost a daily basis - checking walls and ceilings for spiders, scared of new things, worried what I've done won't be good enough for work, feeling overwhelmed etc.
I had some phone counselling earlier this year, about 4 sessions and although they helped with my head space at the time they didn't deal with the anxiety. I'm going to make an appointment with my GP for next week to see what he can do for me.
Well that's one heck of a long introduction but hey, that's me!
Kathryn x
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