Now health anxiety is once again coming to an end, I no longer feel like myself, constantly depressed and isolated.
I feel like i've lost interest in all my hobbies and anything that i've enjoyed. I figured that out the other day when I was trainspotting (that is, or was my favourite hobby), because when I got to the train station I started to feel like I wanted to go home, along with a sad feeling..Then when I got home, I had nothing to do, so I went to play a video game, and lost interest in that, and ended up just laying in bed for the rest of the day.
Its almost as if I can't feel anymore. I can't feel myself and my personality seems to be fading, as if i'm just not myself.
My parents have tried to get in touch with a counselor - but they keep telling us 'its not severe enough', or putting us on the longest waiting list ever, and then when I go to the doctor, they simply recommend counseling.
My sleep issues are still here too - I get 5 hours on a night if i'm lucky. I carried on thinking I had SFI, but I have realized its a 7.6 billion to 1 chance, so I have stopped obsessively worrying about that now..But now its the aftermath. The damage it has inflicted. Self consciousness is also worse than ever, mixed with the hormones of growing up, as my mum tells me.
My family are very supportive of me and I am grateful for that, this forum and it's community has also helped me a lot and I am equally as grateful for that as well, but I really need professional help and the waiting list is huge (the shortest I believe is 18 months) or they just won't listen at all..
I have the feeling I am on the brink of a breakdown again..