Is this depression?
Sorry if I'm asking the same question that's been asked a million times before, I just can't understand how I feel any more.
I've suffered with anxiety / panic on and off for years which I've managed with antidepressants when at it's worst - but I wouldn't say I'd ever really been depressed.
The past few weeks, following a difficult few months battling anxiety, I find I'm waking up in the morning thinking "I can't do this" and it's an absolute mammoth task to get out of bed. I get ready for work thinking "I can't do it. I want to get back in bed" but I force myself to go to work. All day it feels like I have a huge black cloud over my head, but I plod on and occasionally think "No I'm ok. I feel fine" but as quick as the positive thoughts come, I'm slapped with a horrible feeling of bleakness, like I need to stop what I'm doing and just curl up under a duvet.
The feeling stays with me all day, coming in waves even when I'm at home having a cup of tea, watching something I normally love watching I've got this horrible over bearing feeling of "not being OK"
I'm not doing anything I used to enjoy any more because it feels pointless because this bleak feeling overpowers everything :(
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