I understand! I still get anxious even when I check it myself (it's an automatic cuff)! I usually have to put the cuff on my arm, then distract myself for a few minutes first. I'll read an article on my phone, browse the internet, etc, then I'll hit the start button and continue reading until it's done. If I watch the number increase, that also causes anxiety because it usually goes up to 170-200 before it begins the actual reading. And just seeing that number makes me anxious. Haha.