I'm SO sorry guys, but I need to rant..
I love being at home. It's my most favourite place to be at and I'm more safer, more comfortable, appreciated by family etc etc.
I'm always getting told to 'get a life' or to 'get out more' just because I prefer to stay at home at either play video games or just go on my laptop. Thing is, how is my life affecting anyone else?! It ISN'T. So why is it that people need to tell me that what I am doing is wrong and that people like me should be shot for not associating with society?
When I had so-called friends in school it always lead to petty drama or fall-outs anyway.. I was the nicest student ever in school. Even the teachers and parents said so. Every teacher enjoyed having me in their classes and was upset when they found out that I had to be pulled out of school because I was bullied so much that I was extremely suicidal.
I'm just not appreciated by anyone else besides my family. I tried and tried and TRIED to arrange meetings and stuff with loads of people before but they've ALWAYS made excuses not to go or whatever. I never get spoken to when I'm with people anyway. I'm always left out and when I do start a conversation it only lasts 10 seconds... People also look at me weirdly when I talk about things and it just ruins my confidence. I always get asked 'why don't you speak much?' or 'man, you're booooring'.
I'm now an extremely grumpy, selfish, very irritable and insecure person. The total opposite to how I used to be years ago.. It was my bad experience in school with people that has made me this way. It's really bad but I'm starting to hate everyone... (Not you lovely members on here though of course
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Anyone else on here like I am? Or could give advice to what I could do? I'm so sad because of other people insulting me all the time. :(