Hi girls / gents
I am 37 weeks pregnant and I feel like I’ve got so much on my chest so I may go on a bit, I’ve had health anxiety for so long now and I was managing it I guess? I tried to get help but the waiting list was actually longer than my pregnancy so waiting till after the baby is born for that if it comes through (fingers crossed it does!) I have spoken to health visitor and family about my worries but nothing seems to relive them fully, I am so upset that my pregnancy has been ripped from me because of health anxiety, every symptom I’ve had which I know logically is associated with pregnancy I have turned into something awful and that makes me feel like an awful person.
I have had a fear of lymphoma since my grandmother had it and if anyone looks up pregnancy and lymphoma symptoms they’re similar so that didn’t help, it really did scare me. I feel like I’ll never be happy and I really don’t know what to do, I want to be able to enjoy the last few weeks of pregnancy but now I’m obsessed with a BONE under my armpit because I think it feels bigger on one side than the other? I mean how bloody ridiculous.. it doesn’t matter!
I hope someone can chat with me and make me feel a little bit better thank you for reading and sorry to sound daft