I have spent this whole year in daily panic over having some type of cancer. Actually at least few months due to microhematuria in urine (after many tests, they said its just my "normal"). Next for 6 months, I was sure I have throat cancer, as my lingual tonsil is enlarged. I visited at least 6 doctors for the first issue, and at least 8 for the second. And yes, everyday I was sure they have missed "my cancer".
Fast forward to experiencing mild discomfort under left ribcage, which brought me to ER. My left side pain was not explained in the ER, but they found "incidental" liver lesion. Speedy referral to liver specific Ct scan in UCLA and I basically said good bye to my 5 year old. During the scan I had constant severe panic attacks, so they had to restrain me. I was sure its cancer, of course.
One of the best liver radiologists in UCLA read my Ct scan to be either FNH or adenoma (both benign). These lesions are followed by monitoring as there is less than 1% chance that they misdiagnosed it, so I have an MRI scan on Dec3.
Once I got into this, I started to feel sick, not able to get out of bed, having low grade fevers, etc.
Tests indicated that I have h pylori. Got very string antibiotics, and I have finished them 2 weeks ago.
From there, I have visited 5 gastrologists, 6 general practitioners, and two additional Emergency rooms. My symptoms are pressure in the epigastric region, feeling sick, mildly nauseous, and lost some weight.
Basically doctors tell me the liver thing is 100% benign, I might have mild gastritis, OR nothing, and its all in my head.My liver enzymes are normal, everything is normal, and they just don't suspect cancer. My last gastro guy told me "I know you don't have cancer, but I am not sure how to convince you".
I don't know what to do...I am in constant panic, absolutely sure that all these 20 medical practitioners are missing something.
I know its not all in my head, as I do have active h pilory infection. But my brain goes to medical sites, learns how to read Ct scans, reads medical studies how there are few cases of liver cancer that was missed on CT scan, or maybe I have stomach cancer? Or esophagus cancer?
Can anxiety be super severe and cause you to feel sick for real? Hard to believe
I tried to ask my medical dr to refer me to psychologist, and she did, but the wait is 2 months, AND because I LOOK so normal...she nicely suggested "why don't you just do the MRI and endocsopy if it will give you mental relief"...and here we go again...more tests, no help.