Hi firstly i would like to introduce my self,my name is ashley i am 34 years of age and live in england, i have 2 children and i am currently unable to work due to the aniexty and panic i am suffering,hello to everyone.
It seems strange to me because i can offer so much to any one suffering aniexty,panic and depression - ive suffered with this since i was 15 and have been to all the self help, and relaxtion classes , ive tried the tablets and acupunture , i have been there and done it with it all- if you suffer i'm there for you... i can help you and give you all the information... SO PLEASE SOMEONE TELL ME why cant i help myself, why cant i listen to the advice i give others, im so scared of everything..I do belive that people that suffer with this do live a easy going life,of course i know that myself , however for myself i have had to be in control of it , thats how i lead a normal life, but we take things for granted dont we and stress after stress builds and we are still not checking ourselfs for signs of aniexty and boy before you know it,you are riddled with this nasty nasty soul destroying thing,i know how it feels trust me i cry for anyone who suffers with this.
Things have happened in my life like most people and i may be tuff,or at least seem that way at the time but with me and could be with most anxious people , it lays dormant in your consience and before you know it , its crept up behing you and takes you by surprize and then you wonder why and where did this come from ... and then you think you have a heart problem or a tumaor a disease of some kind.
I gave up smoking 6 weeks ago ,and i dont know how i did it , but i didand ever since then i wake up in the morning like ive smoked a thousand the nite before ,i have been told that this happens to some people that give up(has this ever happened to anyone here by the way---see im checking again) anywayrecently i have been waking up same thing pains in my back, stomach sometimes chest not much ...and then i get scared coz the pains arnt nice ... and from that point i get anxious ,then the panic is coming and before it i'm losing it.. now im scared to go to bed , because i have to wake up in the morning to panic...
Im scared to live and scared to die,im convinced i have something wrong with me.. i suffer from bad palps, sometimes they make me so dizzy, but i did have a ecg last year,i do tell my self that ,and the results were fine.. im so weak everyone and have told myself that the weakness is due to the fact im dying, yes it true im in a state... im confused, and not all here-ive got 2 children and i am totally irratated around them beyhond belive.. im so scared i really am ,,,im going to get help again and get this in control - well im going to try my best ... but in the meanwhile im to scared to go out ,to do anything ... ive got bad headaches ,pains all over ...im a disgrace to my kids... wot am i going to do ..im scared everyone xxxxx ASHLEY
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