i have ptsd gad unspecified episodic mood disorder and i used to have bad depression. im currently on 5 mg lexapro( psych is weaning me off) 75 of thyroid med levothyroxine 450 lithium and 1 mg of larazapam as needed. i have been having an extreme last five days balwing in seconds feel hopeless panic attacks, they just upped my lithium to the 450 three days ago. i kept telling me doc i didnt feel good and freaking out so my psych wants me to take the levythyroxine down to 50 mg the lithium to 150 mg and keep the lexapro the same but he want to add zyprexa half of a 2.5 mg pill twice daily and will move up to three times daily if needed..... i am beyond horrified, i dont feel safe doing all that at home... but i cant get admitted... i am horrified to even try the zyprexa and i am already obese so scared to gain anything else i am 5'4 and 250 pounds............ any words of encouragement there is alot of reason i probably feel this bad 1 last week my therapist tried to have me work through my rape 2. my period is due in 11 days. and i have a uti... so i have alot going on annnnd me and my husband were super close to splitting up three days ago........ i really need some encouragment i think its the thyroid med making me fell so crappy