I have just been reading some of the posts and replies that people have left and they all seem so positive.
Now I know that it's good to be positive but with regards to my agoraphobia and panic I find it almost impossible.
I'm not in a good place (mentally) at the moment and just feel totally sick of the whole thing. I cant be bothered with anything anymore, I rarely answer the phone, I dont socialise or visit people, I'm not even particularly interested in my children I just find them hard work.
I don't know how to successfully tackle this problem and have almost given up trying. I don't know if its worth me being here, its not that I want to die, I just dont want to live life like this.
Now I know someone's going to say 'well change your life then' but to me it's not as easy as that. I'm very stuck in my thought patterns and even if I was to conquere something small that I've managed to conquere before like driving to the next town, I can NEVER imagine going shopping in London or going on holiday abroad. I cant even sit through a haircut for gods sake, I cut it myself so I dont have to face the humiliation of squirming in my seat or walking out half done.
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