I somehow made myself believe that I could cure my panic disorder by using the Claire Weekes acceptance method. For the past 3+ months, I practiced it hard. I thought I did well. I thought I was making progress. Then suddenly, one day, it started to dawn on me that Claire Weekes method has its limits. How far it will take you depends on the individual, I think. Some can be nearly cured, others will find some relief but still have many difficulties in life.

Believing that I could be cured, I spent time learning web programming, because I thought I would be able to heal enough to be able to program full time. After a few months, I can see it’s just not possible for me. So now I have been hit with depression and the realization that I will never be able to do what I want in life. I won’t be able to make the money I want. I won’t be able to find love. I want to be dead. Life isn’t worth living if you can’t do what you want to do.