I've already been referred to a psychiatrist at my local Mental Health Crisis Team. I think because of my age, 65, nobody really knows what to do with me. I've suffered from H/A since my dad died suddenly when I was 9. They just tell me I'm caught in the Valium trap - I've been on it since I was in my teens. I know I haven't dealt emotionally with the bereavements I've suffered or the abuse and think that might be part of the problem. I shut down emotionally years ago - partly due to the effects of the Valium - and can't cope if anyone sees me cry. After my dad died I was sexually abused if I cried. The psychiatrist is OK, at least he listens to me and doesn't treat me like some lower form of life, but I'm not due to see him again until next week.