HELLO
IM 44 AND PROBABLY BEEN SUFFERING FROM ANXIETY ALL MY ADULT LIFE.IT RESULTED IN ME SUFFERING PANIC AND GENERAL ANXIETY AROUND TRAVELLING AND HEALTH ISSUES.TO CUT ALONG STORY I HAVE BEEN DOWN THE USUAL AVE OF TREATMENT DOCTORS PSYCHOLOGISTS SRRI DIAZEPAM AND THEY HAVE HELPED ME.BUT NO PERMANANT SOLUTION.
BRINGING YOU UP TO THE PRESENT I AM IN THE WORST STATE I HAVE EVER BEEN IN.MY SON WHO IS 15 HAS BEEN DIAGONISED OCD ABOUT THREE MONTHS AGO, although he hasnt lived with me for 10 years.THIS HAS WORRIED ME TREMENDIOUSLY.IN FACT CONSTANTLY OBBESSING ABOUT IT MOST OF THE DAY.THIS HAS HAD A TERRIBLE EFFECT ON MY OWN ANXIETY AND HEALTH. I CANNOT SLEEP AND FEEL WORRIED ALL THE TIME.IN THE LAST THREE WEEKS I HAVE GETTING THESE THOUGHTS WHICH ARE DISTURBING ME .EVERY TIME I PICK UP A KNIVE I THINK IM GOING TO STICK INTO ONE OF MY FAMILY OR IMGOING TO HARM THEM IN SOME WAY.ALSO I BEEN HAVINGTHOUGHTS OF HARMING OTHERS LIKE HITTING STRANGERS OR THROUGHING HOT TEA ON OTHERS.....................
THESE THOUGHTS REALLY DISTURB ME BECAUSE WHEN THEY HAPPEN IT FEELS A S THOUGH ITS GOING TO HAPPEN. I FEEL DEVASTED AND FEEL THAT I HAVE NO FUTURE.ITS TORTURE AND WHAT I IF IDID IT.I FEEL SO ANXIOUS ALLDAY I CANNOT SLEEP JUST 2 HOURS.
I WENT TO DOCTORS AND HE PRESCRIBED ME CITALOPRAM 20MG AND REFERRED TO PYSCH TEAM FOR ASSESMENT FIVE DAYS AGO.
IM SO DESERPRATE.