Hi all,
great to see the site up and running again
I have woken up once again to my upper chest feeling very tight and a bit painful and of course I'm thinking cancer or something :(
I am so miserable thinking that every little pain or minor illness is something major. The last month I have had brain tumor ( headache for a week) breast cancer (pain in left breast still comes and goes) bowel cancer ( TMI but bloated feeling and change in stools all the time from constipation to the other etc), throat cancer ( this comes and goes but sore achy throat and food sticking in throat) and several bouts of potential thrombosis ( leg pains)
Then I get onto thinking that maybe there is something wrong and that is why my body keep getting all these problems, I keep visualising my body riddled with cancer and I cant seem to stop my head from thinking these things.
If I had the time before christmas to see the doctor I would at this point have to have him check all of the above problems and would be there for hours :(
On a plus side I have my first appointment with my trainee clinical psychologist this afternoon. I'm not sure he's going to know whats hit him after spending an hour with me. I'm feeling a bit of a hopeless case right now and I have no idea how he is going to help me get over this health anxiety.
anyway sorry for rambling on as usual
hope everyone is feeling ok and happy christmas to you all
lucy xx