hi again!! ok will start from the beginning i went on my holidays last week for a week in spain, initially it started off well my only problem was the flight i was so anxious i drank too much and that kicked off my anxiety for the week! initially i was fine i just started having some disturbing thoughts while i was away such as the what if's??what if i go mad when im away etc almost as if because i was abroad and so far away from home it was worse then the thoughts just got worse and worse until the point i had a massive panic attack and almost just felt like i wasnt myself and talked myself into such a state it was like i was dreaming and felt no emotion all in the space of a couple of hours,, is this normal??? read a disturbing article in a newspaper and instantly i thought oh my god what if i had a breakdown and done this, anyone ever had this? last but not least since i got back i havent been sleeping almost as if i get half an hour in and i jolt awake because i cant feel my arms or they dont feel attached to my body or feeling weird cant really describe it just feels really strange also really spacey feeling like im not in my own bedroom but somewhere else????? i actually feel bad because im not really feeling any emotion although i know im really worried if that makes sense ??? thanks for reading
lee