Originally Posted by
rachelb
Hi all,
I just have to add that I think it is an individual thing. I'm almost 40 and been trying for all my life to "cure myself". Been to counselling numerous times, which would get me out of the drowning sensation but I would then just tread water until then next drowning event.
I was totally against meds, not wanting to have it on my medical record etc but I was sufficiently nagged by family until I gave in. And boy am I glad I did. It may not suit all people but for me, citalopram has been wonderful. Yes I have lost my sex drive and my short term memory has got worse, BUT the plus side really is worth the loss. I find myself smiling randomly, I have felt pride and achievement in something I made the other weekend (the first time in my entire life!!!), when people ask "how are you" I can really say "I'm ok thanks" without lying! Before I started taking the meds I was very sceptical, thinking how can meds affect a physiological problem, but I am now 100% convinced it is something physical in the brain, as the change in me is amazing.
Obviously the meds in themselves are not the solution however I have been trying CBT for some time, and when doing the evidence sheets (where you state a thought and then try to produce evidence for and against that thought) before the meds, I could not think of a single positive thing to write, not that I was blocking them, I was really trying to think but nothing came. As I started to take the meds, the positive thoughts began to come, the negative too, but I could at least write something positive to try to win the fight.
'Scuse the long waffle, but IMHO they have been really really worth it, but your mileage may vary.
Good luck whatever route you decide to take.
Rachel