For the last few days in the hours before I wake ,I wake feeling like im dying and can't stop it.I wake and seem like I feel worse than I ever have.I think during the daytime I worry so much it drains me.I have been feeling nervous and anxious all day everyday,but curious that maybe if its about my somewhat security blanket being gone for the holidays.I have a nurse friend that keeps my spirits up and tells me im ok and she is gone for the holidays thus maybe making me feel scared to the point I feel so tired in the mornings.I get on the scales and the weight just keeps coming off and i cant seem to stop it.I eat ok and get hungry but I only eat breakfast and an evening meal and usually no snacks..no sugar and not much bread..I get up to do things and get so tired and weak so I go back and lay in bed most of the day and evening.I can't seem to get stronger because I get up to do something and get so tired.My heart is beating a little faster than normal ...76 other than 72 dont guess that really means much but I dont like it..Today im feeling more tired than usual.I get up and feel ok but feel as though I want to get back into bed.The weight loss is what scares me the most,but most certainly couldn't be from disease because I have no fever and no other signs of disease.I don't cough , or look that bad but am getting skinny which I am not use to..but when I say skinny its just my normal weight accordigng to charts everywhere.

Im just worried that its something else other than the anxiety but my nurse friend says no and the doctors say good that you have lost weight its best for you .. Im scared to the point that im just not looking towards a future and hard to get excited about Christmas im afraid that im not going to make it..Surely you can't convince yourself over time that you are dying and then you die..?Maybe its just been really cold and the weather is making me feel worse than other times .. Hopefully its nothing else.. I just worry so much and cant stop it.. Weight loss, and weakness and tireness I suppose all go hand and hand..I am just worried its not anxiety but something causing anxiety but hopefully im wrong.. Any one give me hope please?

PRAYER FOR FREEDOM FROM SUFFERING

May all beings everywhere plagued
with sufferings of body and mind
quickly be freed from their illnesses.
May those frightened cease to be afraid,
and may those bound be free.
May the powerless find power,
and may people think of befriending each other.
May those who find themselves in trackless, fearful wilderness--
the children, the aged, the unprotected--
be guarded by beneficent celestials,
and may they swiftly attain Buddhahood.