Hi

I have made a lot of mistakes in my past and caused upset to my family, my mum in particular, she only likes me when I do as she likes me to do but in the same respect always is there for me financially, As a result of these issues I have told a lot of lies to her, She doesnt know me as I have to try and be someone else to make her love me, infact I behave like this with most people! I hate myself so much sometimes Im afraid to be me incase everyone hates me as much as I hate myself

I cant stop punishing myself for these mistakes and keep re-living them in my mind, I think I am a bad person who Is suffering like this as a pay back,

how can I put my mistake right and stop punishing myself?

Wendy x