Thank you panic_down_under for all the advice. Ok, I'll stick to the half tab every day just for just another week. My head is scrambled I need to get back into control as jumping from one solution to another.
I dont have a psychiatrist or counsellor for support as getting access to those services is very difficult so essentially all I got is GP who has limited mental health experience, my bro who understands as he going thru similar situation and advice on here and what I can piece together from Internet.