hi everyone,

im well known on here for my tocophobia- severe....

and now ive gone and gotten myself pregnant....

i really want this baby, but am so terrifed of birth-day. i cant decide which is the best way to go for me that i will be able to cope with...

pls dont post horror stories here, it wont help me.....

i terminated the last pregnancy because of fear and i have been given a second chance here that i dont want to ruin...so pls, im asking for positive stories to help me get through this and be excited about having my dream of a beautiful baby......

also, im terrified of hospitals and needles!!!!! i know- doesnt help right...im such a pathetic excuse of a woman, but pls advise......i cant talk about this with my 'friends' because they already heckle me and put me down for being scared of pregnancy.........
im just about 6 weeks now...