thanks for that lyn1960.

so im 6 weeks now, and just cant seem to stop thinking about the birth.
whatever way i go, both seem so so scary! i mentioned to my husband that it feels like ill be in one of those saw movies where i have to choose which horror i will face ( i havent watched these movies, having anx, but i get the idea of what happens in them)...he said that was an awful thing to say.

so now i feel really bad, but still terrified i cant resolve this in my mind. i know this wont happen for another 7 and a half months, but its inevitable....

what do i do if the baby isnt healthy?

oh what have i done?

so sorry to be harping on like this, but i cant seem to stop my head.
on the good side-i have started sleeping through the night now, so im not waking up crying...

i wish the stork story was true........haha