No worries, I'm hoping the beta blockers are temporary as I'm scared I'll get to rely on them and not learn how to calm down.
I can't help but lose weight with the gallstone, if I eat fat the pain is awful, I'd rather have my wisdom teeth out again! I've lost almost 2 stones, I was overweight but would not wish the pain/anxiety diet on anyone!

I'm wondering if the pain interrupts my sleep but it's probably anxiety as well. I'm not scared at all about the op or hospitals, it's the unknown fear in my head that eats away, telling me it's terminal etc, we all know the feeling. I have to be rational and tell myself that it was brought on by not grieving fully and I must be kind to myself, this support site is a real comfort as it helps know you're not going mad!