So I feel abit irritating posting alot but it helps me get it out, knowing someone might read it?
Anyway, yesterday was a very very bad day, the guy I liked got a girlfriend, an ugly one and I'm sorry but I can't just switch my feelings off and I knew I'd been used for 2 years but I felt like utter crap yesterday, and also very drunk by 4pm. Anyway I booked the doctors for the 10th and I'm going to ask to be reffered to someone and to get some decent help, if I have many more days like yesterday or xmas day I worry how much worse I could get?!

Anyway, I've had a brilliant day today, I do enjoy this illness sometimes, I like being in a great mood for new years eve, I may have work at 4am but I feel invincible right now. So, whilst in this good mood I wanted a quick rant but to wish you all a happy new year and to thank you for being so kind in recent weeks/months