Thankyou to all of you for your kind comments
I was having a major bad morning but I spent the day cleaning and sorting (stops me thinking) to get me through it,
and as regards my sister she is of the attitude "life is what you make it,some just enjoy to wallow in selfpitty"
I said "I hope you never end up in my place" its okay as she said she never would.
I just can never understand people being so cruel and from the people who are supposed to love you most.I dont see any of my family anymore as I no longer have the strength to fight them to see the good in me.

I always tell my children its no good being beautiful on the outside if you are ugly inside.

thankyou Dawn