Thank you so much, I can't describe the relief i felt when I saw that someone had replied

Anxious_girl, I am not having therapy, is it something that you'd recommend or have experienced yourself?

Littlehelper123, thanks for the comment. The mantra thing is a good idea, and most of the time I think I can put of the thoughts by saying something like "just sily stupid thoughts". Its when I feeling really low there seems to be no way out of the horrible thoughts. Also what do you mean by mindfulness?