Hi Spice,
Thank you very much, i very sorry to hear that yu have been there and i couldnt imagine how hard that must of been for you. with the holiday we booked it before he started seeing this girl. i know this doesnt matter at all but i wanted to give you more of an insight into this, this girl is 4yrs older than him and engaged, i call it seeing becuase thats the only thing i can relate it to, they have kissed and txt whenever she can, and he did say if she slit up with her fiancee then something mite happen because he does like her, he says he wants to be my friend and that he wont mention her again to me, and he knows im going through a bad time again when i told him i was back on diazepam and he said hes here if i want to chat or go round to chat. ive told him i cant rely on him again and i need to do it on my own and as for being friends, yeah hes the only one that when i spend time with im fine and the thoughts are easier to conrol, but i know that being friends with him wont do me any good because if it doesnt happen with this girl then it might be someone else and i cant keep going through this.
Jo x