Carnation,
I'm so very sorry to hear this news. I do hope you find some relief in the fact that you gave it your all for your mother right up till the very end. That means more than a lot...it means everything...to both her and you. She was blessed to have you there for her. I've read many of your posts over this past year and from where I stand you are an inspiration on how one should look after an aging and ailing parent. I think it was Frank Sinatra that said "gettin' old ain't for sissies". And taking care of the aged ain't for sissies either. You're in my thoughts and prayers at this very difficult time.
God bless,
N.