Re: Feeling low & usless
You're very valuable and interesting, there's only so much control you have over the wear and tear the body takes and the ailments that come to us all eventually. It will take a long time to adjust and I hope you have support to help you come to terms, it doesn't mean life is over or empty even though it surely must be depressing as hell to observe what is happening and the implications for your daily life, I hope in time you do not feel as low and there can be relief and management regarding the pain and uncertainty. Your body does need good nutrition especially when your sleep and stress levels are suffering, I know that sounds very simple to say but even one decent meal a day if you can manage it would be a great step.
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''...an utter depression of soul which I can compare to no earthly sensation more properly than to the after-dream of the reveller upon opium - the bitter lapse into everyday life, the hideous dropping off of the veil. There was an iciness, a sinking, a sickening of the heart, an unredeemed dreariness of thought which no goading of the imagination could torture into aught of the sublime.''