I got one! I took my mum with me, the GP said "well I don't know if they'll do anything, but it's been going on a while, so I'll refer you if you want me to"
I got a password to book my own appointment online, but it says there are none available, so I guess I'll ring tomorrow.
my mum was like "I'm glad I came with you, that doctor is so defensive, she wouldn't have done anything if I wasn't there" and my mum doesn't have any sort of anxiety.
Just glad I've got the referral! Even without health anxiety worrying about serious issues, I have a tonsil issue full stop. I spit yellow with blood in it, my salivary glands swell and I can't breathe properly half the time due to the inflammation.
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tbh I wasn't scared of cancer BECAUSE of coronation street. I was just sick of seeing it everywhere, and to see someone that felt completely well, suddenly diagnosed with terminal cancer, and leaving their family behind upset me a lot (even though I know it's not real), when it's a programme that's usually familiar and easy to distract myself with.
Also the sonographer said they were swollen, and I do have pus that comes out of them so I do have issues. I've had issues with my tonsils since 2011, even before health anxiety. My anxiety might not make the physical issue worse, which is 100% there whether serious or not, anxiety or not, but I do agree it makes my dealing with it much harder. And I do agree that I should cross the cancer off of the list,
my pre-health anxiety self would've thought, phew the doctors said I don't have to worry about cancer. But my brain is wired to the 'what if' of every scenario.
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I didn't used to be able to feel any nodes at all, however I can now, I suppose part of recovery is learning to accept that your body can change and may not go back to how it was, but that doesn't mean it's serious.