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Originally posted by charliebrown
my problem is not PA's as such but more a constant state of anxiety, taking over most days of my life. I can't seem to relax and walk around in a daze, constantly worrying "will I meet someone superior to me, will I say something stupid, can they tell I'm shaking", etc. My skin/face feels constantly "tingly", ive read the description of a feeling of "heightened consciousness". I worry costantly about EVERYTHING. I can't seem to hold convesations which involve me replying more than twice, get all tongue tied and say the most ridiculous things, or even worse just look blank. I have a great partner, loving family, a brill best friend and a good life. These feelings overcome me not only when meeting new people, but sometimes when talking with my best friend too!
It's affecting the way I am with my kids, more and more I'm sitting them in front of the TV as finding it hard to even be "real" with them - sometimes they do the silliest things I want to laugh out loud but CAN'T, my face goes all funny and tence. I think I've forgotten how to relax and laugh but I so want to.
I desperately want to have nights out and let go but its hard. would you recommend telling people how you feel or not?
Thanks