So just a quick update, i get mental health cover through my work health insurance. I have had an assessment and they have recommended cbt done via video call which I should get within a few days. I have also been on the phone with my doctor and he has increased my venlafaxine from 150mg to 225mg. He has said to take an extra 37.5 for 2 weeks then take the full extra 75mg after that. He has also prescribed me 28 diazepam and I can take these up to 3 times a day if needed. He did mention addiction of the diazepam but anyone who has read this full thread will know I really hate taking them and only use in a dire emergency.
I have told my boss I am increasing my medication and she has been amazing and told me to take time out when I need it for walks or just to chill. I am really lucky there, and working from home really helps. I am still at my parents and they said they will make sure I eat and get a walk eveyday.
I am not going to lie I am totally petrified of doing this but I can't stay like this.
Tomorrow will be day 1..... Gulp!!
Ava x