Current Situation - Rock Bottom

[LittleLionMan]

It might be pointless by try to see it as going through a transition. You are very much awake! You have fight and that's a good sign. The 'moon stuff' is just your chosen example of deep embedded fear. If it wasn't that, it would be something else. Avoidance is your protection as you see it at this present time. Look at as being uncomfortable as opposed to being fearful.
You are strong despite what you think, keep going!

I'm ok, thanks for asking.

Yeah, the avoidance has turned it into the sky in general, so I can’t even look out of windows or anything anymore. It’s completely taken over.

I’ve never been more clear about what I want either, as in how I want my life to look, so that just adds to the frustration when I’m cowering away like this.

Thanks mate, glad you’re doing okay.

[Carnation]

I’ve never been more clear about what I want either, as in how I want my life to look,

This is good! Keep a hold of that thought.

[LittleLionMan]

This is good! Keep a hold of that thought.

Yeah, I’m trying.

It’s all just this one fear and the avoidance that goes with it, and I simply don’t know how to get over it.

[LittleLionMan]

How do you get out of your head?

I’m constantly thinking at the moment, trapped in my head, and finding that the panic comes when I can’t resolve my thoughts or just get thrown my a thought, it doesn’t even have to be ‘scary’.
Had an awful panic last night just laying in bed watching tele, the thought was about I watched an Instagram video earlier about a guy was talking about anxiety being fear that was never dealt with storing up as anxiety and the thought was something like ‘everyone has different theories on anxiety, no one really knows’ and bang panic.

I mean it’s not even a ‘scary’ thought, and lots of what I panic about aren’t, it’s more if a thought is a bit muddled or confusing and it just throws me.

[Carnation]

Hi lionman

I often find reading or watching something can spur on a response. I avoid the stuff that could send me into an anxiety spiral to panic. You get to know your boundaries.
As for 'getting out of your head' as you put it and I presume that's not anything to do with a good skinful of booze, most people use distraction until they feel they can do the accept and let it pass attitude.
I was wondering how you were doing.

[LittleLionMan]

Yeah, it’s just anything honestly, it’s so confusing. I wouldn’t even know what to avoid because anything can do it… I think it’s just my tired head struggling to make sense of things.

Haha, that’s how the rest of my family get by! Drink their troubles away.

I’m really really bad, have no idea how to even try and move forward, but I’m still hanging in there, just.

How are you doing?

[Carnation]

I'm not too bad, thanks for asking.

If you feel you can't move forward then just be until you feel able to do more. An exhausted mind needs to relax so any little nap will help. Otherwise watch some comedy or something like that.

[LittleLionMan]

It’s also been a very difficult week, my dog died on Monday and I forced myself out of my comfort zone to go and see her before she went. I had an EMDR session on Tuesday which frazzled my head, my family went away all apart from Dad that was having drunken rants, and work is piling up and I’ve been unable to do it, so it’s been lots of little bits of added stress. It’s all just gone a bit wrong, and the more tired my head is the more these odd thoughts come for me.
It’s just all really tough and I don’t really know which way to turn.

[Carnation]

Aww lionman
It's such a wrench when you lose your furry friend.
Well done you for going to see him, that can't have been easy in more ways than one.
Don't put pressure on yourself, just do what you can.

[LittleLionMan]

I was really glad I went to see her in the end, but it wasn’t nice.
Yeah, I tried to take it easy over the weekend, but my head won’t leave me alone with all these same weird thoughts and fears and I still don’t know what to do about them.
It’s all so confusing and scary.