Hanging in there, ish.

[BlueIris]

Had my meds review this week (basically an are-you-okay? text) and I've decided to increase my citalopram dosage. Not sure if it's still the right drug for me but I want to give it a go before I run the gauntlet with something new.

[Darksky]

Absolutely right. There are many to choose from and some do wonders for one and zilch for another.

Giving it a good go is the only way to know for you.

Good luck with it Blue.

[jojo2316]

How goes it on the upped dose blue? Xx

[BlueIris]

Hard to tell so far; emotionally I'm feeling good and I seem to be back to being more productive, but the flip side of the coin is that I'm wanting to sleep all the time.

[jojo2316]

That’s interesting- i often find SSRI’s interrupt sleep. So good you are feeling a bit better though! (And maybe your body is still trying to catch up on all those lost night’s sleep!!)

[BlueIris]

So much more I could say here but I'm trying to process it all. I had no clue how frail my parents had become until my sister messaged me on Friday. Came down to visit today; I inherited my passion for food from them but quite a few bits in the fridge were mouldy, and it turns out my mother has dementia and is only mentally with us about a fifth of the time.

I cannot even begin to get my mind around this.

[Scass]

So much more I could say here but I'm trying to process it all. I had no clue how frail my parents had become until my sister messaged me on Friday. Came down to visit today; I inherited my passion for food from them but quite a few bits in the fridge were mouldy, and it turns out my mother has dementia and is only mentally with us about a fifth of the time.

I cannot even begin to get my mind around this.

Sorry to see that Blue. It must be quite a shock x

[fishman65]

Very sorry to hear this Blue. Sometimes life gets away from us and time moves on without us realising. It's nobody's fault, its just the way things can pan out

[Carnation]

Blueiris, I've been through all that with my parents and it sort of happens without you seeing the signs. Or maybe there are signs but we don't want to accept them. Plus there is the matter of work and keeping your own head above water, not to forget our own health matters.
It takes time to accept the frailness of our parents and for many years they are the ones in charge.
It's not an easy time emotionally but I hope you realise that you have a listening ear here and we can support you as much as we can.

[BlueIris]

Thanks all.

I don't mean to be dramatic but it feels like I lost my mother without even finding out about it.

Once I'm home I'm going to refer myself for therapy to keep on top of things.