hi sue,
i totally know what you mean. with me i think it's because while i'm with people, i've got a million negative thoughts running through my head, like 'are they bored? i bet they're bored. i bet they think i'm weird. i look awful today, i bet they're thinking how terrible i look'. etc. all of which makes me just want to sit at home with my boyfriend in my pyjamas watching tv!
when it comes to people coming round, i get jittery because i think 'what if i get tired and i want them to leave? what if they stay for ages and i can't get rid of them?'
it definitely gets better - i just say how i'm feeling now, so i'll just go 'do you know what, i'm absolutely knackered', to make people leave when i want them to!
take care,
henri x