Today I had an awesome day. One v. minor flare up but things were going great. I then got on the phone with my AA sponsor and was almost finished talking to him and had just decided to go to bed soon. The thought of going to bed soon-flashed too, how boring my life was sober or something and my stomach dropped. Mind you my stomach dropped because of the thought. I love my life and I love being sober. This thought/feeling has become a recurrent part of the cycle that I am going through right now. If I am not obsessing over relapse, all of the sudden I will think of the immediate future and some thought of disatisfaction will come into my head. As I said, I do not like the thought and do not feel depressed or dissatisfied with my life. But it scares me and I worry that I am depressed, though I don't feel depressed. SHEESH!!!
I would appreciate any help.
Thanks,
Jake