to be fair you sound similar to me. i know exactly how you feel. just sack everyone off and do what YOU want to do. im sick of people interfeering and telling me how to get better and how to feel. best thing is treat yaself thats wat i try n do. you must have a guilty pleasure be it fatty food, gambling or wotever. i no most people will disagree but i feel much better when i just screw everyone else and treat myself. hope you get better soon i no how awful it is to feel the way you do as i feel the same. chin up and treat yourself