Feeling a little sorry for myself. I know I shouldn't, moreover I don't like to.
I feel friendless and alone, abandoned and unloved. See? What a misery.
Recently finished with my girlfriend of around 10 months. Bizarre ending: It was like Invaders of the Body Snatchers. Mind you she does suffer with multiple personality disorder - or is histrionic personality disorder, I forget which? She has a lot of problems so I shouldn't be surprised, but I thought, 'At last I've found someone who accepts me for who I am - anxiety and all.' Because the change was almost instantaneous, it came as quite a shock. We were very close and talked about everything. To have that vanish overnight is awful. On top of that, I was suffering badly with Sciatica and my Mum was in the hospital, so had no one to turn to. These things always come at once don't they? Why the hell is that?
Anyway, so now I'm at that stage of feeling abandoned and mourning the loss of a really good friend as well as partner. We helped each other out a lot you see so it's left a huge void. And I miss her dog!
Please, don't tell me, 'You'll get over it', 'You'll find someone else', and other cliches. I know they're sincere, but they don't work on me. I'm just trying to get this out of my head - sorry.
I have plans - goals - for this year and had hoped to share them. Now I have to manage alone, again, and it's so tiring. I'm not getting any younger!
Thanks for reading this. Hope it makes sense. I's a very condensed version obviously. I love NMP. It's always good to know you lot are here. Please excuse me if I don't acknowledge any replies immediately, I really need to sleep.