Hi. I have suffered with HA for 12-14 years. I have usuall always suffered with symptoms of the HA but recently I have been dealing a lot with depression and I have to say I’m frightened really frightened. My life seems to chasing me downs I have lots going on. Me and my husband don’t get in that well at the moment, my children have had a lot if sickness I fell and hurt my back weeks ago and it’s still not great and that’s getting me down a lot. I hate everything and everyone I want to be in my own but I want people to notice me(I know very selfish) and be with me. I just don’t know what I want, how I feel. I just feel lost and very very angry and so sad but I just don’t know why. I feel like I’m letting my kid down so much. I don’t even want to be around them and that’s bad for me. I adore them and I hate the way I feel. I am just so lost with all these new feelings. I’ve had my antidepressants changed and my gp is aware. I JUST HATE MYSELF.