fear of dying young and leaving my children behind
I am new one here, thank you for allowing me be a part of the forum.
My mom died of cancer at the age of 40, I was 11 moths then. Now I am 40, have three small children; 5, 4 and 2 1/2 and live with a paralizing fear of dying and leaving my children without mother.
Even though, being 11 months old, I don't consciously remember the pain after my mom died, but it has been somehow recorded in my body, my cells, my DNA and I know it is the last thing I would ever want for my kids to experiance.
This fear of dying (I don't care to live for my sake and God knows that) and leaving my kids behind is so huge at times that it paralizes my life.
Any suggestions how I could overcome and free myself from this fear?
Thank you so much for your time.