Cmack
17-08-13, 23:37
Hi people,
So i know that i've had depersonalisation disorder for a couple of months now, but it has got to the point where i have gotton so detached from my sourroundings and my body that i have become overly tuned-in to my bodie's movements and actions.
For example, i'm constantly checking things; like moving my hands, legs head, you name it... Even counting the number of footsteps i'm going to take and making sure that my body actually does it right as i 'told my brain to'. It's as if everything is rehearsed now:(
Maybe i'm just reassuring myself that i'm still in control, but this is really freaking me out. I'm so tuned in and movement just doesn't feel natural anymore and there's a definate disconnection with my body and the brain.
It's like when i'm eating, i'm really focusing in on moving the fork and knife, and it just doesn't feel right, un natural as i keep saying. Everything is under close analysis and on watch basically. Maybe it's just over-analysing, whch i know is common with anx...
I hope someone can relate to this as i feel like a complete and utter freak!
So i know that i've had depersonalisation disorder for a couple of months now, but it has got to the point where i have gotton so detached from my sourroundings and my body that i have become overly tuned-in to my bodie's movements and actions.
For example, i'm constantly checking things; like moving my hands, legs head, you name it... Even counting the number of footsteps i'm going to take and making sure that my body actually does it right as i 'told my brain to'. It's as if everything is rehearsed now:(
Maybe i'm just reassuring myself that i'm still in control, but this is really freaking me out. I'm so tuned in and movement just doesn't feel natural anymore and there's a definate disconnection with my body and the brain.
It's like when i'm eating, i'm really focusing in on moving the fork and knife, and it just doesn't feel right, un natural as i keep saying. Everything is under close analysis and on watch basically. Maybe it's just over-analysing, whch i know is common with anx...
I hope someone can relate to this as i feel like a complete and utter freak!