Shapeshifting Lizard
13-05-15, 19:16
Before and since I got off the booze in hospital and moved to a psych rehab place it's been mental, and it keeps getting worse. It's anxiety, mainly about nothing, and it's gripping me 24/7 like something terrible's going to happen and I would kill myself to end it this second if I could. It's been so bad I've tried to admit myself into hospital, and still I want to go there.
I'm on 1mg haloperidol and just 2mg lorazepam a day and while the lorazepam offers some relief I'm sure the effects are starting to wear off and I know the doctor won't prescribe me any more. I've taken to chain smoking, hogging the bath facility and waiting for my next fix for some relief.
I wish I could get an emergency psychiatrist or just emergency help of any kind. I can barely cope with each coming day and I think it's all going to spiral into something catastrophic.
I'm on 1mg haloperidol and just 2mg lorazepam a day and while the lorazepam offers some relief I'm sure the effects are starting to wear off and I know the doctor won't prescribe me any more. I've taken to chain smoking, hogging the bath facility and waiting for my next fix for some relief.
I wish I could get an emergency psychiatrist or just emergency help of any kind. I can barely cope with each coming day and I think it's all going to spiral into something catastrophic.