RetailMoth
29-11-19, 04:44
So here's the deal. I'm 4'11", and at the doctor's I clocked in at 88 lbs. My last visit, in October, I weighed about 95. I'm not concerned about how I've lost weight, not really - I know how it happened. I work long, overnight hours, have very little time to eat a meal, and spend most of my free time either in commute or asleep. I've always been a very small girl, most of the women in my family are. It doesn't take much to feel full for me, and I eat a lot less than when I was a teenager.
THe doctor told me I shouldn't worry, because my heart, blood pressure, and breathing were all fine, that I had a BMI of 18.5 and if my health was otherwise okay, my being underweight was nbd. That I should only gain if I wanted to.
But honestly, I'm super insecure now and wondering if that's even true. Today at Thanksgiving I had a smaller plate than everyone else did, and a relative snarked "No wonder you only weigh 80." I snack when I can, I just grabbed a leftover roll, and I FEEL okay but. I feel so bony and small and everyone else I know gets frantic and demands I eat more and "Go to the hospital!"
I do not have an ED - I just don't need as much as my friends do. Just to reiterate.
My roommate, whom I lived with for three years, once heard me throw up when I had the flu, and then cornered me saying she KNEW I had an ED and this one instance proved it, nobody could be as small as I was naturally!
I just feel like maybe the doctor was wrong and there is something wrong with me after all.
THe doctor told me I shouldn't worry, because my heart, blood pressure, and breathing were all fine, that I had a BMI of 18.5 and if my health was otherwise okay, my being underweight was nbd. That I should only gain if I wanted to.
But honestly, I'm super insecure now and wondering if that's even true. Today at Thanksgiving I had a smaller plate than everyone else did, and a relative snarked "No wonder you only weigh 80." I snack when I can, I just grabbed a leftover roll, and I FEEL okay but. I feel so bony and small and everyone else I know gets frantic and demands I eat more and "Go to the hospital!"
I do not have an ED - I just don't need as much as my friends do. Just to reiterate.
My roommate, whom I lived with for three years, once heard me throw up when I had the flu, and then cornered me saying she KNEW I had an ED and this one instance proved it, nobody could be as small as I was naturally!
I just feel like maybe the doctor was wrong and there is something wrong with me after all.