blackie
22-02-08, 18:25
Hiya all
Sorry to be a pain again but i fel so confussed and just need to rant a little.
After waiting for ages and being mucked about i am finally getting help. This is great news but i had a meeting today which i totally forgot about with the top doctor. He very kindly agreed to come to my house and seemed a nice guy. Pomblem was that he was bassically saying that i have a serious condition and the symptoms will not go away. He wants to put me on anti depressants and anti phycotics. I really hate medication and do not want to take it. Basically i guess though that they are saying they cannot cure me but can help to manage the symptoms and have a more normal life. I just feel so scared and confussed. Also they are going to arrange for a support worker to come and help take me out and get back into spending time with other people and that i also need something called DBT which is done in the city so i have to go there.
Its great that i am getting help now but the treatment also worries me and i know it is going to be hard. I feel so put down though knowing that there is no cure just management. Then again i guess its like having diabetes. Theres no cure but it can be controlled.
Right now i really wish i wasnt me. I wish i could just be normal and didnt have to battle every day. I want a rest.
Sorry to moan just dont really know what to do with myself at the moment.
Blackie
Sorry to be a pain again but i fel so confussed and just need to rant a little.
After waiting for ages and being mucked about i am finally getting help. This is great news but i had a meeting today which i totally forgot about with the top doctor. He very kindly agreed to come to my house and seemed a nice guy. Pomblem was that he was bassically saying that i have a serious condition and the symptoms will not go away. He wants to put me on anti depressants and anti phycotics. I really hate medication and do not want to take it. Basically i guess though that they are saying they cannot cure me but can help to manage the symptoms and have a more normal life. I just feel so scared and confussed. Also they are going to arrange for a support worker to come and help take me out and get back into spending time with other people and that i also need something called DBT which is done in the city so i have to go there.
Its great that i am getting help now but the treatment also worries me and i know it is going to be hard. I feel so put down though knowing that there is no cure just management. Then again i guess its like having diabetes. Theres no cure but it can be controlled.
Right now i really wish i wasnt me. I wish i could just be normal and didnt have to battle every day. I want a rest.
Sorry to moan just dont really know what to do with myself at the moment.
Blackie